I don’t want to go to college… (College Chats #5)

Well I do, but I don’t want to do the applying, getting in, deciding part. I just spend the last hour in tears because I feel so overwhelmed. I don’t know where I’m going or where I’m applying and I just want it to be done. I just want it to be over with.

I have absolutely no idea what I’m looking for. I don’t know what questions to ask. I just don’t get it. I don’t get the process. I don’t get the dumb essays that ask why I want to apply. I don’t want to do anything.

I was so excited now here I am in actual tears about applying to college.

Maybe I just won’t go.



SATs don’t get any easier… (College Chat #4)

I thought that just maybe the SAT would be a little easier the second time around, and in some ways it was, but in others it was just as hard and stressful.

Yesterday I woke up the earliest I’ve woken up in nearly 2 months and took my SAT. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy to have taken it a second time before beginning my senior year, but at the same time, because it is summer my sleep schedule is a complete mess.

I practiced for this SAT a lot. I did so many practice tests and practice problems (especially math), and that honestly helped me so much. I 100% recommend that whether it’s the first or fifth time you’re taking the SAT. It seems like a lot, but just do like 10 questions a day and you’ll be so much more prepared than you would have been without practicing.

If I can give anyone any advice it’s to practice, practice, and practice some more. I promise it’s not as bad as you think it is. It’s like 10 or 15 minutes a day that help soooo much in the end.

Just like my last SAT in March, I finished the English sections super early. I feel like I was way better at section one than I was last time and section two was the easiest it’s ever been.

AND, because I practiced so much, I was able to finish not only the math with calculator with time to spare, but I also finished the no calculator section with a few minutes to spare and that is an absolute miracle. On both of my PSATs and my last SAT I never had time to finish section 3 (no calc) yet here I was this time finishing with extra time.

I guess in a sense this time was easier but that’s because I practiced like crazy.

Honestly that’s the only advice I can give you. Practice like crazy and hope for the best. Also, make sure you sleep like a normal person. That’s useful. Or you’ll be tired.

Happy Sunday 🙂

My Senior Project.

As far as I’m concerned, my school does not do a senior project. I mean I’m happy that we don’t but at the same time I wish we did because it would be kind of fun in my opinion.

Anyway, yesterday I was cleaning up my room a little and watching YouTube videos (typical summer Savannah), and I got some inspiration. Recently I’ve had a fascination with bullet journals, but I lack the calligraphy and patience to ever be serious about it.

INSTEAD I’m going to document every single day of my senior year and my end goal is to have a journal full of doodles, rants, love notes, and anything that I think is important to my senior year that I will want to look back on.

It will essentially be a scrapbook with writings and drawings and random things. I’ll also document college things like days I finished applications and places I got accepted and rejected.

I’ll also HOPEFULLY be able to write random things in Latin since I’m taking a latin class online.

Will I do it all year? I hope so.

The only thing I haven’t figured out is how I’m sharing it. I’ll likely end up sharing just the best pages and spreads, but I’m not sure if I’ll do it all the day after graduation or random times throughout the year.

We shall see.

I will do most of the writing at home, but I have a 6th period study so I can do some things in school maybe. I’m not sure. I mean people know about my blog, but do I really want to be essentially scrapbooking? Not really.

Again, I’ll figure it out as I go. I’ll see what works and what doesn’t.

I’m honestly super excited to do this. I have a memory box, but senior year is important to me.

This is the year I decide if I’m leaving everything behind for Massachusetts or staying in the general area (NYC or Jersey).

This isn’t really a senior project, but it’s a project I’m doing my senior year.

That’s the same thing, right?

Happy Monday 🙂

*I somehow managed to write Saturday even though it’s Monday…*

SAT Practice Test and changing my career path…again (College Chat #2)

After spending about 3 weeks of the summer in bed watching YouTube, getting up really only to go to work, I decided that I need to start getting my life together. Don’t get me wrong, I love just laying in bed and doing nothing, but at the same time, I take my SAT in 6 weeks and I haven’t so much as thought about math since I took my finals a month ago.  So, I took action.

I started my Friday morning, a morning which I normally would’ve woken up around 12:30-1pm and work up at 9am. I planned last night that I was going to wake up and take a practice SAT and that’s exactly what I did. I had a scheduled practice at 10am and I started it around 10:02. A little late because I wanted to eat breakfast before hunkering down for a few hours. Also because I needed to set up Spotify because there was simply no way I was sitting in silence for that long.

Before going into detail I should explain where how how I am doing this SAT practice. I used to use Ready4SAT but, one, now you have to pay for it which I refuse to do, and two, since it’s an app on my phone I got distracted by notifications. My boss actually recommend that I used Khan Academy, but since I had only ever used it on my phone, I didn’t like it.

Lucky for my sleeplessness, I decided to do college research last night and go on CollegeBoard and it reminded me that I take my SAT at the end of August. From there I went onto Khan, set up my account, linked it to my CollegeBoard account, and got a lesson plan curated for me within my 6 week time frame, focusing on what I need help with most based on my SAT and PSAT scores.

That bring me to this morning. I set up to do 45ish minutes of practice a day (30 questions) and I have 3 practice tests leading up to my actual test. All of them Friday mornings. All of them at 10am. All of them hopefully helping me improve.

I spent about 2 hours on a test that should have taken me three. I ended up doing better in Math, but somehow decreased in Reading. My score went do to an 1170 compared to the already terribly average 1180 I got on my March SAT. I’m not mad, I went into it with absolutely no practice. I just wanted to see where I stand.

I’ll just keep practicing on my scheduled practice days and hopefully improving.

Aside from that I’m not going to work in publishing anymore. I’m still going to write books, but I think my skills could be useful elsewhere.

I learned yesterday that most students have to double major because you need a certain amount of credits to graduate and one major doesn’t give you enough.


I’m going to double major in english langue and early childhood education! YAY!

I mean my job involves me working with little kids on a normal basis and I’ve always loved little kids.

Ideally I want to teach 2nd or 3rd grade. The kids are independent but still imaginative. They will get their work done but they’ll greatly appreciate doing other things.

One of the main reasons I like those two grade levels is because those are the years I had the most fun. Those are the years I had my favorite teachers and I felt like I was having fun but still learning.

If I do teacher for a higher grade level I would want to be strictly an english teacher. I like math, but I can’t teach it. Not for a living. That sounds miserable to me. At least english is like writing and reading, things I enjoy doing.

There was a point in my life I wanted to be a teacher, but I changed my mind. Now here I am again, talking about being a teacher.

I guess the idea never really left my mind, I just made way for new ones. Don’t get me wrong, I would like working in publishing, but not forever.

I think what I’m trying to tell you is that you’re not going to know what you want to do. You’re going to change your mind about 1500 times. I know I have. It’s cool though.

We’ll figure it out.

Happy Friday guys 🙂

Personal Essay, Retaking my SAT, and September ACT (College Chat #1)

Before you read the rest of this, I’m thinking about giving this college thing I write about a name. I’m really liking this whole series thing. How do you feel about college chats? I don’t know, I like it

I’m probably jumping the gun here…

Correction: I am most definitely jumping the gun.

I often find myself worrying about college. It’s just who I am. I get in these moods. I worry. I panic. I do research. I give up. I inform.

I’m in the last stage.

Seeing as I did all this research I figured I might as well inform you of what I found out about personal essays and my probable topic, as well as tell you how I am preparing for my second SAT and first ACT.

I didn’t get into this crazy panic mode for no reason. I got an email about my summer english assignment which is just to write my personal essay/college essay. I wasn’t going to worry or even think about it until the end of august so avoid giving myself time to second guess it, but too late. I convinced myself that I needed to just look at the topics and get an idea on what I want to write, and now here I am with a pretty clear idea.

Don’t worry though, I’m not starting…


In reality, it would be dumb of me to even think about beginning to write it. You really shouldn’t write it this soon. From what I’ve read and watched on youtube, we shouldn’t start before the end of summer. It’s understandable to start the last week or two before senior year to avoid overloading yourself and giving yourself time to have it read by other people.

I don’t think I’m going to do that though.

Granted, I have to do it for a grade, but I’m not making major changes. My essay should reflect me and how I speak. Obviously I want it to be clear and understandable, but I want to avoid changing anything that isn’t grammar or clarity. Even so, if I write like I do here, with the fragments and odd spacing, I probably won’t change that.

It’s me. It’s how I write. It clearly represents how thoughts flow through my head and onto the screen before I can even finish them.

I want these schools to see me for how I am and what I do.

Which brings me to the topics.

The topics technically aren’t available for the application yet, but they have been announced. 

  1. Some students have a background, identity, interest, or talent that is so meaningful they believe their application would be incomplete without it. If this sounds like you, then please share your story. [No change]
  2. The lessons we take from obstacles we encounter can be fundamental to later success. Recount a time when you faced a challenge, setback, or failure. How did it affect you, and what did you learn from the experience? [Revised]
  3. Reflect on a time when you questioned or challenged a belief or idea. What prompted your thinking? What was the outcome? [Revised]
  4. Describe a problem you’ve solved or a problem you’d like to solve. It can be an intellectual challenge, a research query, an ethical dilemma – anything that is of personal importance, no matter the scale. Explain its significance to you and what steps you took or could be taken to identify a solution. [No change]
  5. Discuss an accomplishment, event, or realization that sparked a period of personal growth and a new understanding of yourself or others. [Revised]
  6. Describe a topic, idea, or concept you find so engaging that it makes you lose all track of time. Why does it captivate you? What or who do you turn to when you want to learn more? [New]
  7. Share an essay on any topic of your choice. It can be one you’ve already written, one that responds to a different prompt, or one of your own design. [New]

I will probably go with 6 or 7 depending on whether or no I can answer the “what or who do you turn to when you want to learn more?” part.

I am going to write about this. About writing. About you guys. My passion for blogging and books and run-on sentences.

Now it makes more sense as to why I don’t want to change my essay much after the first time I write it. I want it to resemble my blog. How I would write for anything besides a school assignment. I want it to be a written version of me.

For me, writing is something that will always be there. I want to write for a living. I want to be a novelist or author if possible. I want to write books and impact lives like books have impacted mine. I want to mean something. I want to make a difference and educate people like I have been educated.

And it all starts here for me. It starts with book reviews/rants. It starts with the run-on sentences and short stories and poems and random life experiences. It all starts with The One With Books. My home. My safe space.

I’m not even sure if at this point if you guys still read or care, but I do. And that means something.

That’s what I want to show the admissions people. That’s what you should should aim to do. Think outside of the box. Show the admissions people who you are

That and sat/act scores.

As you probably know I took the SAT in march and got an 1180. It’s fine and will do for most schools accompanied by my GPA and extracurriculars.

But I’m annoying and want atleast a 1300 so I’m taking it again in August as well as taking the ACT in September. It can’t hurt to take both.

Since it’s summer I’ll actually have time to practice. I will be using Ready4 apps (the SAT and ACT versions) as well as doing random practice tests I find online because I am not paying for an SAT book. It’s way too expensive and honestly, probably not worth it after I take it in August unless I do worse, in which case I’ll go to community college and get a business degree and work in an office or something. I’ll be a boring person compared to who I am now.

But I’m not going to do worse. I’m going to drastically improve. The Ready4SAT app was helpful the first time I took the SAT but I didn’t get much time to use it because of school and work.

This is my current mentality:

-Your college essay is going to be bomb.

-You’re going to kill it on your SAT/ACT

-Stop worrying, it’s June. You have like 3 months to figure it out. Enjoy summer.

Honestly guys, we’ll all be fine.

Happy Sunday guys 🙂


Senior Portraits and the end of the year

Today it hit me. I’m in my final few weeks of my junior year of high school, and what do I really have to show for it beside the evolution of my outfits and my slightly above average grades and GPA.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve enjoyed most of high school and have lived nearly every aspirable (yes I know that’s not a word) moment that most high schoolers dream of besides the partying, I’ve never even been invited to a party, never mind gone to one. Like birthday parties yea, but not party parties that people have on Friday nights where they drink and get high. I never really wanted that anyway. But to be invited would be nice.

My high school checklist was/is as follows:

-Get a job and save money (check)

-Get good grades (so far so good)

-Make some new friends (Love you guys)

-Get a boyfriend (Love you Ant)

-Drive (working on it #stayofftheroadsfeb2018)

-Do fun summer stuff (hopefully this summer)

-Go to prom (T minus 7 days)

-Have fun (Thankfully I learned what that was this year)


Those are just some things that I really wanted, or were happy once receiving. They’re just like the typical good kid high school experiences.  And that’s all I could really ask for or want.

But now here I am, 3 weeks away from finishing junior year. I took my senior portraits. I’m looking at colleges. I saving money. Like this is all becoming so real, and I don’t think I’m ready.

I’m not ready to go to college. I’m not ready to provide for myself. To have to fix things on my own. Pay bills. Get an adult job. I’m just not ready yet.

I like being in high school because everything is pretty much handed to you. The work is little tough at times, but its manageable. You have a set schedule and parents making sure you go to school on time and do your homework and keep your grades up.

I’m not ready to grow up, and I’m not even graduating yet.

I can’t wait to see what senior year has in store for me.

Happy Thursday guys 🙂

My SAT score and why I probably won’t get into BU

I woke up Thursday Morning excited to see how well I did. I didn’t expect 1500, but I was thinking maybe at least a 1300. Let me tell you, I was terribly disappointed, well underwhelmed really. I was angry, and I kinda cried because I knew what my score meant. No BU.

I got 1180. That’s it. And I got a 17/24 on my essay which I’m proud of.

Before I say anything else, I know I can take my SAT again, and I will when I’m ready. Probably in August so I have July to seriously prepare.

I don’t want to go into college applications in a few months expecting to be rejected from Boston University, but I also don’t want to be expecting to get into their honors program. I’m honestly expecting to be waitlisted, which isn’t terrible, it’s just not ideal. My dream is BU. That could be temporary because I’m indecisive, but right now that’s what I want. I want to study English at BU in cold Boston.

I have a 3.9 GPA, so my SAT score doesn’t really reflect who I am as a student, which sucks, but what can I do. I’ll take it again and hope for the best.

I just want 1300, and I’m going to have to work hard to get there.

Happy Monday 🙂

Farewell Mr. Frangipane

I am currently taking marine bio. My actual teacher is on maternity leave, so we had Mr. Fang for about 2 months. He was honestly the best teacher.

The problem is that he lives super far, and it was only a temporary position, so getting a possibly permanent job nearer where he and his wife lives is only a smart career move.

So, here’s to you Mr. Frang. We had an awesome few months, and I was obviously your favorite. I wish you well at your new job. I’m sure your students will love you as much as we do.

Though I am not graduating this year, I hope you will come next year to my graduation (don’t worry, I’ll remind you).

Honestly though, thank you for being such an amazing teacher and looking out for all of us. Good luck at your new school.

Expect to hear from me in the future.

Happy Friday 🙂

Let’s talk…about college and life I guess

I should probably be doing my vocab, or at the very least my physics, but I don’t feel like it. I feel like talking. I’m in a babble mood.

I have spring break soon, so I’m super excited for that. I’m probably going to take off work that week and I want to visit colleges, but I’m not sure about that yet. A few weeks ago I had a bunch of colleges in mind, but now I’m obsessed with Boston University.

It’s not good to have a dream school because it puts too much pressure on you to fit into what that school wants, but it’s way too hard not to have a dream school. By all means, have a dream school, but don’t let that mold your high school career. Do what you want in high school, don’t feel like you need to join every club, get a perfect SAT score, and be the top of your class because of a school. It’s not worth stretching yourself out like that. There are plenty of universities that would be lucky to have you.

That being said, I’m taking a 3rd year of Spanish, and honors pre-calc, and AP stats next year because it looks better on college applications.

I get my SAT scores soon so that’s exciting. Once I get those I can really weigh my chances of getting into different schools, but for now, I’m just going with the flow.

But back to BU, I absolutely love the school. The campus is so beautiful. I’m honestly in freaking love. And they have an amazing English program.

I ended up going to sleep last night. I am currently in math, but I already finished my project and handed in, plus my teacher just left us unattended.

Since there’s only two of us of the three there usually is, we pretty much have a free hour to ourselves. I’m just reading about BU and campus tours.

I live about 4 hours from Boston, so I can drive, take a train, or even fly. Of course if I go there, when I move in I’ll drive, but once I move in, I can fly home for $100 round trip.  For a college student that may be a lot, but by the same token, it’s not like I’m flying to Cali.

The only thing I don’t like about BU is that freshmen are required to dorm. For some that may be no problem, but I don’t like sharing a space, I’m used to my own space, my own order of organization, and my own peace and quiet.

I had this awesome idea to have a small studio apartment and it be all my own, but now I can’t do that.

Also, BU dorms are super tiny for freshman.

I need to talk to my counselor soon, and see what I need to do in the next yearish to prepare for college. What scholarships I qualify for. Stuff like that.

Anyways, the period is almost over.

Happy Thursday 🙂

That Time I Took the SAT and Didn’t Throw Up

I woke up at 6:15 this morning to ensure that I had enough time to shower, eat breakfast, and clear my mind. I had plenty of time to shower, but since I was so nervous, I had trouble clearing my mind and eating. From the time I woke up to the time I received my testing materials in my testing room I honestly thought I was going to throw up. My nerves were bouncing all over the place. I felt like I was going to do terrible. I just had to many things in my brain telling me that I couldn’t do it, but honestly it wasn’t that hard.

I had to be at my testing center by 7:45.  When you get there you’re probably going to sit in a general area with everyone else until they start checking IDs and testing tickets. This is where my first real problem arose. On Collegeboard, my testing ticket was fine. It matched my school ID and I was set. But, word to advice to anyone who’s taking the SAT: make sure that when you print your ticket that the picture is clear. You’ll likely be okay, but just in case. Some people actually got turned away from my testing center which is what scared me the most.

Once you get through the ID checking, you’ll likely receive a room number. Your room will again check your ID and test ticket. This is a common thing. If you leave or enter the room you must have your ID and test ticket checked.

My room had 20 people in it. Once we all were checked in the test giver person checked our calculators and offered pencils to those who needed. She also made sure all phones were off and in the front of the room. We had the option of putting our phones in the basket or in our bag in the front of the room. I just put mine in my basket.

Then it moves on to filling in your test information on the answer sheet. All the boring stuff that ensures you get the proper test results in a timely manner and that you’re taking the correct test, in my case SAT with Essay. That took about 15 minutes.

The first two section were english and the second two were math. Then the optional essay was the final sections. I got to the testing center at around 7:40 and left at 1:00, just to give you a rough idea on time, but I’ll go further into  the time per section in a second.

Like I said the first section was english. This was a 65 minute section with a lot of analyzing and honestly, some pretty boring excerpts/articles. I think I did fairly well on this section considering that’s usually what I have trouble with. I had about 20 minutes to spare so I took a small nap and had a dream about a squirrel, which my friend said is because one of the articles mentioned squirrels.

The second section was more grammar, paragraph structure, and definitions. That’s something I’m good at (because I read books), so again I found it fairly easy. This section was 35 minutes. I finished pretty much on time. I had only 5 minutes to spare.

Then was the first math section, no calculator. These Collegeboard crazies think that we can do 40 questions without a calculator in 25 minutes. I think not. Needless to say, I guessed on a lot of those questions.

After there was a 55 minute math section with calculator. It was more challenging, but having a calculator made it easier to check if my responses made sense.

And finally there’s the essay. You have 55 minutes to write an essay that answers the prompt. I like writing (obviously) so it wasn’t too hard.

I should get my scores back April 13, so I will let you guys know how I do. I am thinking I got higher than a 1200, but I’m not sure. I’m just confident. But then again, where does my confidence usually get me?

Happy Saturdays guys 🙂